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Dawn Levitt's avatar

That was beautiful and sadly comforting. Thank you for sharing with us. ❤️

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you Dawn ❤️❤️❤️

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Phoenix hogg's avatar

Thats beautiful really moving i didn't think I would make it after serious suicide attempts. I'm so glad I stayed for me. Gosh the trees books music u don't think of these things . Will it be every week? X❤️ lovely to hear your voice u sound so kind .

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you so much Phoenix! I'm so glad you're here ❤️❤️

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Phoenix hogg's avatar

Such an important issue to highlight x ❤️

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Tara Huck's avatar

This is beautiful ✍️❤️

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you so much❤️❤️

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Leslie Ann's avatar

Thank you, Mesa!

As someone who is "in crisis" almost daily, please know that you just provided me (and others) with a "little bit of hope."

❤️‍🩹

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Oh Leslie 😭❤️ Sending you so much love.

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Leslie Ann's avatar

❤️

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Eileen Vorbach Collins's avatar

Oh, Mesa. Thank you for this. It's sad and beautiful. Your reading hurts my heart and I'm sure it offers hope to many. For the trees. For the night sky. For love.

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Big love to you Eileen <3 Thank you for being here <3

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Sondra Imperati's avatar

I’ve loved hearing your voice in your posts but to literally hear it was just wonderful. My heart is so happy you have found your reasons to stay. I had always wished my dad had chosen me as that reason. Unfortunately, it was not to be. The movement I’ve started Persistent Courage is to help others find the courage to love themselves, others and to find the humanity in others. Please know we all need you to stay dear Mesa. I love you!! ❤️

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you Sondra ❤️ I'm so sorry he didn't stay, my mom and dad didn't either, I know the pain all too well. I'm not going anywhere now, that's a promise ❤️❤️ Love you and your Persistent Courage ❤️❤️

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Sondra Imperati's avatar

I’m so so sorry that you had to experience that pain too, my dear friend. My heart is bursting with happiness for you and for all of us that love you so much! ❤️❤️

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Amanda's avatar

Beautiful my dear friend! I’m so happy that I exist in a universe where you do. You are so loved! 🥰💜

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you!!! Love you so much ❤️❤️❤️

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Julie's avatar

I’m glad you’re here Mesa. As a counselor who has worked to help dozens and dozens of kids and teens with suicidal ideation, by the grace of God tried to remind them of reasons to stay, thank you for this ..would love to connect more sometime ❤️.

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Oh Julie, thank you for your kindness. Thank you helping the littles stay ❤️

And absolutely, would love to connect more!

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Thomas Lloyd Qualls's avatar

Thank you, Mesa.

This is such an important topic, thanks for continuing to show up like you do, brave and real and approachable.

I have never attempted suicide. But I have thought about it more times than I can count. And there have been so many of those times that if I had access to a gun or a large amount of narcotics, I might not still be here.

My point, I think, is that it is it is such an important conversation because more people than we imagine suffer from suicidal thoughts, ideation, and even attempts. And to answer an earlier question, for me, it never had anything to do with getting attention. It was because I was overwhelmed, saw no way out, and just wanted to leave, to disappear, as you said.

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Mesa Fama's avatar

My friend.. I'm so so so glad you're here. Thank you for sharing your experience and thank you for staying ❤️❤️❤️

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Thomas Lloyd Qualls's avatar

Thank you for staying! <3

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Amy Gabrielle's avatar

I loved listening to you read your own writing. You've got a great voice, very calm and reassuring. My heart sank when the suicide death was confirmed, even though I suspected it was coming. I never want to get used to hearing that someone has died violently. I don't want to be dulled to the pain, that is where my humanity lives. Thank you for this gift Mesa. I can't wait to hear more. XO 🥰🥰🥰❤️❤️❤️

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you my sweet friend! I'll never be numb to it. I think my husband has to desensitize himself to it because of his job.. but every time he's got the scanner on it instantly makes me aware of the humanity around Us.

Looking forward to sharing more !! ❤️❤️❤️

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Bonnie Solomon's avatar

This is so good and important. Many of your reasons in this one are ones I relate to/share. ❤️

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you Bonnie 💙 I'm so glad to share the same reasons as you!! 💙

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Kenneth Whitfield's avatar

Have you found that often suicide is a desperate call for attention? For many, seeking attention is the purpose of much of what we do. Satisfaction for what we have done, of appreciation of the things that bring us happiness, as you said is or can be a reason to keep going. For me, it is about the hope of having more great memories to experience and recall. Whether due to people, love, pets, or iconic images of nature, they all instill memories that can be recalled in times of such need. Even recollections of memories that include other people long gone from our life are just as beautiful and meaningful to us. The thought of not being able to build new memories is what I thought about when listening to your first podcast. Hope for the future, and the ability to replay the music that means the most to you for whatever reason, whether nostalgia or night dreams or reminders of “days of future past” can make you happy to be alive.

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Hey Kenneth! Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts.

My attempts were not to gain attention, I literally wanted to disappear. My parents deaths weren't for attention either, they were battling their minds and lost. I got lucky and failed in my attempts. I was able to seek help for my mental health.

Can people use threats of suicide to gain attention? Yes. But the ones who are suicidal and take action, aren't really thinking about what kind of attention they're getting. They literally just want their pain to end and usually don't want anyone to know. From my own experiences as well as studying suicide/suicidal ideation for my psych degree it's not necessarily a cry for help. The cry for help came before the attempt.

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Kenneth Whitfield's avatar

Yes, I understand what you are saying. Being unable to end their pain themselves, to me, requires seeking and accepting outside help. Much like you did. Seeking someone to pay attention to your pain, or call greater attention from others to your seemingly insoluble problem or pain is just one of many causes, I believe, in suicides.

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Anna Mahoney's avatar

Thank you Mesa. This is beautiful. Lovely to hear your voice.

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Thanks so much Anna ❤️❤️

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Natasha Levinger's avatar

Thank you for sharing this and for this podcast! I’m grateful to not be in a place of suicidal ideation but still this list helped me ground into gratitude. I’m sure you will help a lot of people!

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Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you Natasha!! ❤️❤️

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Love you so much! Thank you 😭❤️

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Mesa Fama's avatar

It's absolutely hard to be optimistic when our brains tend towards negativity, it's the amygdala that gets us when we're not able to see beyond the moment we might be in. I spent over a decade training my brain to keep myself alive. I STILL battle these thoughts.

All I can do is try to spread a little hope to anyone who needs it.

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