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Jim Granlund's avatar

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Glad you stayed.

Stay.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Jim. 🩵

✨ Prajna O'Hara ✨'s avatar

Bless your heart, dear sister. What a legacy… Thank you for sharing.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you dearest Prajna. 🩵

Mary Beth Spray's avatar

Holding you and the field during this anniversary time, dear Mesa.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Mary Beth. Appreciate you. 🫂🩵

Mary Beth Spray's avatar

Take care Mesa!

Shaista Ali's avatar

You have such wisdom; perhaps life provides gifts in loss. I hope the date, and the days leading up to it, are as gentle as they can be.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Shaista. That’s my hope too. 🩵

Chicago Story Press's avatar

Lovely piece. Thank you for sharing.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thanks so much for reading. 🩵🩵

Mary Austin (she/her)'s avatar

Ooof…I’m sorry you have this legacy from your mom. What a complex anniversary. Blessings and peace as the calendar turns to this again.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Mary. 🩵

Danni Levy's avatar

I hurt for the hurt that makes anyone feel that they are better off gone. I hurt for the cause. Mesa, so glad that you reach, claw, scratch and pull and drag yourself back into whatever speck of light you can find. That you find light. So glad that you stayed. You are more valuable here. I am glad you know this. Hugging you. 💞

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you dear Danni. 🩵

Angie Maher's avatar

Hugs to you, Mesa.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Angie. Big hugs right back. 🩵

🔥Sage Justice🔥's avatar

Death anniversaries are tender. I’m sorry for the pain floaters in the air- apt analogy. Thank you for keeping this important conversation alive (no pun intended)- Jesus Sage! Oy-sorry. My weird coping mechanisms for suicide. That’s a good one for HOPE “hang on pain ends.”🫂

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Sage. 🩵🫂

Mary Roblyn's avatar

Big hugs to you, Mesa. I’m glad you stayed.💛

Mesa Fama's avatar

Me too, Mary. 🩵🫂

Eileen Vorbach Collins's avatar

Oh, Mesa. My heart hurts for you. And for your mom too.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Eileen. I know you know. So much love to you. 🩵

Maureen C. Berry's avatar

You are so loved, Mesa. And your words are gorgeous and tender for her and for yourself. Leaving her pain in the notebook was so, so wise, you sweet woman. I’m sorry for your loss of your mom. What was her name? ❤️💔💋

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Maureen. Her name was Diana Kaye. She mostly went by Kaye. 🩵

Jen St. Germain's avatar

I am awed by your strength, grace, empathy, and understanding. You truly are a remarkable person. So glad you’re here. So sorry for your loss, my dear girl ❤️

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you my friend. I’m so glad you’re here too. 🩵🫂

Michele Wood's avatar

Beautifully told. Please keep writing.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Michele. 🩵

Katherine Theodore's avatar

Thank you so much for sharing. I’m so sorry ❤️❤️❤️

Mesa Fama's avatar

🩵🩵🩵🩵

Sally French Wessely's avatar

I’m so sorry you had to experience this heartbreak. I wish she, and all who have died by their own hand, could have known their leaving left us did not leave us better of in any way. Instead it left us bereft and longing for a different ending for their lives. I left us with never ending heartbreak. Somehow you, and I, and all who have this loss have gone on, but oh how I wish for a different story ending for life you shared with your mom. Sending you much love.

Mesa Fama's avatar

Thank you, Sally. So much love to you too. 🩵