Welcome to part 2 of Capricious Youth. (Part 1 can be found here)
A serial love story- in love with the idea of love, not really understanding what that means. Looking for the void filler in everyone and never seeing my own worth. Not knowing the difference between crushes and real love. Not understanding the difference between lust and love. So lost in wanting only ever to be loved.
When I was 12 my mom told me that boys only want to have sex if they love you, and also, true love and soul mates are the only things that matter. As a result of this imparted wisdom, I did not have a healthy relationship with my idea of love.
I know now that what I was taught was faulty information and I’m left to wonder where she learned it all from? Books? Movies? I know those things reinforced my beliefs.. oh man did I look for confirmation in those things! I was a sucker for every fairytale out there. And I spent the majority of my youth searching for the happy endings everywhere.
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